It's easy to wonder whether I'm taking the right path. Whether I'm doing what I love, whether I am where I need to be to be my best. But it's easy to continue on the same path regardless. When does the journey end? When does the moment slap you in the face and reveal the truths you've locked away?
Or is the reality more of a personality? No matter the situation or lifestyle, perhaps there is always wonder... about a distant future, or a different self. Perhaps the moment will never be now.
It's difficult to describe my general sense of being. Though I feel that despite my current position as a graduate student - a student who should be passionate and creative - I have lost much of my intellect, ability, clarity, and creativity. The entirety of my life has become monotonous. It has become routine and rushed. Meeting a deadline has taken priority over the process. Completing a task has overridden my love of developing ideas. Competing has become more important than my fascination. I've lost my ability to think. Yet here I am, at the time of my life where thinking has become more required of me than ever. Where has this will to think and create and discover disappeared to and how do I recover it?
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